No Face Pic = No Chat

I cruise the hook-up apps just like most gay men that have smart phones. A comment I see in profiles a lot is something along the lines of “no face pic = no chat.” It is a sentiment that I can understand. In fact it is a sentiment I kind of share. I like to visualize what a guy that I am chatting with looks like. I think it makes it more like real time. It’s also nice to think the person I am chatting with is not dealing with shame. I am too out to try to be closeted when in public with someone.

However, I also recognize that despite the progress we have made in society there are still many proud people who do not feel comfortable being quite so public. In fact I have often thought about obscuring my identity on social media as well because of my professional position. It can be disturbing for clients to know too much about my personal life—it can be distracting from the work we are doing or they can find out something they don’t like but is irrelevant to the professional work we are doing. I know that some clients have seen me naked or seen pictures of me naked—just as I have stumbled onto naked pictures of my clients on occasion—and this is something that ideally I would not like to have as part of our relationship, but being open is a decision I personally have made.

One of the comments I have seen deriding the absence of a face pic referenced the age of Don’t Ask, Don’t Tell being over. I have a client who is an officer in the military reserves. We talked about what it might mean for him to add to his Facebook profile that he is in a relationship with another guy after Don’t Ask, Don’t Tell was overturned. He acknowledged that he thought it was great that he could not be kicked out for being found out anymore, but expressed sincere concern that he would not receive another promotion in his career if his superiors found out that he is gay. One’s career in the military is not secure just because of a change in policy, it will take a while before there is a change in attitude up the ranks.

There are also many conservative professions in which having that much exposure could be occupationally damaging. Here in Houston, the economy is dominated by oil & gas, the medical industry, and shipping. All three of these industries are notoriously conservative.  Some of the energy companies have excellent non-discrimination policies. However, I think that by now we also know that not all of management abides by the spirit of non-discrimination policies. Similarly, we think of the medical field as well educated (and equate this with liberalism), but the medical industry (like the mental health industry) have a long history of keeping one’s private life private. The majority of the gay doctors I have talked to do not put their face on their profiles because they have to deal with both a broad political spectrum of patients and a politically conservative work environment. I don’t think there is any confusion about how liberal or conservative the shipping industry is.

The counter argument I hear a lot in my defending the faceless is that only other gay people are looking at the apps, so what would be the concern? This has been the argument about why it is safe to go to the gay bar for years—only other gay people will see you there. Today, neither of those arguments is quite true. I see straight people at my bar almost every time I go, and I go to one of the least straight-friendly bars in the city. But the apps are even more vulnerable to exposure outside of the community. How many gay guys are showing profiles to gal pals non-gay friends because the guy is particularly hot or the profile is particularly amusing? Okay, now what if the friend shown the app is a co-worker of the person whose profile was just shown? Sure, the friend is probably open-minded, but nonetheless the person on the app was just outed at work without control of that information—and without consideration of the possible consequences.

Everyone needs to decide what they want in a potential partner or trick on the apps, but I do wish that people would respect that not everyone is free of consequences of being out. The majority of states—including Texas—do not have non-discrimination clauses and many employers are still willing to punish, terminate, or limit gay employees. And besides, the next time you ignore the faceless guy on the apps, you just might be missing out on that doctor you mother wanted you to marry.

Excited and Angry

Two things of note happened in my life recently related my identity as a gay man, and as a mental health professional. President Obama publicly announced his support for same-sex marriage and in the same week a former client committed suicide because his family could not accept his sexual orientation. This is a rough juxtaposition for me.

Part of me wants to celebrate President Obama’s announcement. I want to share in the joy of this gesture. I see it as a symbolic action in that as President he has little official power to effect change in state marriage laws. I see that it has importance nonetheless, in that it will inevitably affect public opinion and has the potential to set same-sex marriage rights as an official party policy. I recognize that progress will only be made incrementally and often symbolic gestures can turn a real world, practical tide, which is what I hope happens in this case.

However, I am reminded on a weekly basis in my office, by the people that sit on my couch that as a people, GLBTs are far from being accepted. Many of us living our insulated lives—frequently among our liberal friends—are unaware of the daily oppression that has gone on or continues to go on.  Most of us have not been directly affected by the oppression. I have been an out gay man for just over 25 years; in that time I have been threatened with physical harm or even death a half dozen times—sometimes anonymously, sometimes from a person standing right in front of me—and I have had my apartment door vandalized  in grad school (see picture).

In those 25 years I have also seen sodomy legalized, DADT overturned, and same-sex marriage begin to be legalized. I have seen numerous openly gay or lesbian politicians be elected. I have seen numerous states pass non-discrimination laws. I have seen a President specifically address a GLBT audience, appoint openly gay and lesbians to sub-cabinet positions and ambassadorships, and invite GBLT individuals to state dinners. The amount of progress I have seen is sometimes enough to make my head spin.

We have made tremendous progress in the last 25 years. But there is a sentiment that (suddenly?) everyone can be out and open with reprisal. I see this sentiment on the online hook-up apps all of the time because the person himself feels safe without consideration for what consequences may result from another’s different consequences (demands that people have a face picture in their profiles without any consideration as to the workplace or family consequences involved in being exposed). There is a sense that since we live in a liberal city which elected an openly lesbian mayor we are safe. All of the threats and attacks that I experienced also occurred in exceptionally liberal cities.

The day that President Obama made his announcement there were protests all over the country planned in response to the vote the previous day in North Carolina to ban same-sex marriage. The majority of the protests were immediately converted into celebrations. I agree that having a sitting President express support for our equality is a momentous occasion as well. But I also was a little frustrated that it diffused our anger. It is our anger that fuels us toward continued progress, not celebration. Stopping to celebrate our progress is essential in maintaining hope and I fully support it. However, I also fear that we will become complacent with the crumbs of acceptance.

I am reminded of how far we still have to go about every week by my clients. I also am aware of the (indirect) effect of the barrage of stories of oppression—bullying and ministers, as of late—has on the psyche; it is not healthy to be continually reminded that people hate us. How many times a week are you exposed to homophobia by reading the news? I hope that we still get angry, but do not stay angry, but I also hope we do not stay joyous yet. I hope that we are able to appreciate the progress with one eye, while simultaneously recognizing the immense progress still to made with the other.

Therapy Does Not Equal Rent a Friend

“I don’t need therapy, I have friends”

This is a sentiment that is frequently expressed.  However, this is not the reality that I generally see among my clients. While it is true that I often perceive that my clients could strengthen their social support networks, they do not come to therapy to share their mundane problems—that is what social support systems are for. Rather, they come to me with enduring or intense problems that they feel for which their support systems are inadequate.

A concern that I often hear from clients is that they do not want to overburden their support systems. I think most of do not like friends that are constantly complaining—most of us also do not like to be the friend that is constantly complaining. We do not want to be perceived as an embodiment of our problem, but to be seen for the multidimensionality that we are. As a consequence, we often withhold some of the pain we are experiencing from our friends in order to appear to be “bigger” or more than the pain. We want out friendships to be a balance of support and entertainment-companionship.

When a problem is enduring and personal it is difficult to constantly have ‘the problem” as the context in which one interacts with friends. Friends are often well meaning in asking about a problem, but rather unprepared to deal with the full brunt of the problem. They also do not understand that by asking about a problem, while they intend to be supportive and are genuinely interested and concerned, they actually help keep the problem in the forefront of the person’s mind. Sometimes we want our friends to offer us support as a “time out” from the problem.

Friends also lack the ability to be objective. Friends have insight that a therapist never will, however, they also have their own filters as well. Friends are also are rarely free of their own agenda. When a therapist develops an agenda for a client it is grounded in an understanding of the client’s best interest. While I genuinely care about the happiness of my clients, at the end of the day my life will largely be unaffected by the outcome of a client’s decisions. Friends are frequently affected by friend’s decisions, and are aware of this. Therapists are able to be outside, independent observer in a way that friends can never be. Friends also recognize that by being too challenging of their friends they can endanger the friendship. As a therapist I get more liberties to challenge people about their problems and call “bullshit” when I see it.

Sometimes clients come to me because they do not feel safe talking to their friends about their problems. If the problem is about a friend and one is not sure how to address it or is uncertain about the problem in some way, then talking to the friend about the problem is not likely to feel comfortable. There are also things that we would rather not have our friends know about us. While I am not a big fan of secrecy, it is a reality of many people’s lives—as is privacy. Sometimes there are things that we would like to better understand before we are ready to share with friends—or even know how to share with friends. One of the reasons people come to therapists is because we are trained to deal with the heavy shit—questioning the existence of god/good/evil, feeling life is meaningless, questioning one’s gender/sexual orientation, figuring out what roles one actually wants in society—these are not questions that most friends are prepared to deal with and can only give pat advice.

Friends also are not trained in theories of personality, human development, symptom identification and treatment, and processes of human change. Therapists are. Listening to problems and being supportive is an incredibly important role of friendship. But listening to problems and being supportive is not facilitating change or personal growth, actually it often facilitates the status quo. Therapy often provide and educational or normalizing role that friendship cannot—either the friends do not have the knowledge or they will be trusted as unbiased.

I cannot overemphasize the importance of a social support system. In fact it helps feel keep us stable and from sinking into poor mental health. But friends cannot offer the same professional guidance and exploration (not advice) that therapists provide.

Labels (Part 2)

I recently wrote about why I think labels can be useful, even though there is a mantra against labeling people. The double edged sword of labeling people is that they promote expectations, but this can be both problematic and beneficial. Names for relationship status is another area where I hear an avoidance of labels. I hear less encouragement of avoiding labels of relationships, but no less frequency of it; “it’s complicated” is one the ways that people frequently avoid labeling a relationship these days.

I have friends that are dating, and apparently in a monogamous relationship, only they are afraid to label their relationship as “dating” or refer to each other as “boyfriends.” They are sexually exclusive with each other and have romantic feelings for each other but do not dare label their relationship as “boyfriends.” I do not know what they think is the risk of labeling what is going on between them, but it feels risky to them.

It seems that they think that by not labeling it a relationship—they are roommates—they do not risk being emotionally hurt. However, I think they actually create greater risk by not labeling their relationship. Labeling a relationship does mark certain expectations, or can clarify expectations. But in this case, the absence of the label does not mean the absence of the expectations. If either of them were to have sex or go on a date with someone else they would very hurt—as much hurt as if they had labeled the relationship. Only without the label, the expectation is not made explicit.

Both of these guys are sexy guys and this is where the label would be useful for others. If they labeled themselves as being in a relationship it would give the rest of us a better sense of how to treat them—namely as a couple. Until I figured out that they were dating (unbeknownst to themselves) I would hit on each of them, now I know to back off. I still do not know when I am expected to invite them both to things or just one of them—with couples I default to inviting both, but with roommates I am more inclined to invite one or the other to something, based on what the event is.

Of course the flip side is that labels sometimes do not help in clarifying some things and can even cause more confusion because we have limited expectations for labels. Relationships come in many forms. But they can at least inform us as to what questions to ask. If someone is in a relationship I can inquire about the nature and boundaries of the relationship, but without a label we are more likely to step on toes without realizing it. Even when I encounter an open relationship I attempt to clarify the parameters of the openness of their relationship. So the label cannot tell one all of the nuances of the relationship, but it provides a framework in which to work.

There may be a shortage of terminology to describe the full range of relationship types—the term “monogamy” does not well apply to a triad relationship in which the three members are exclusive to each other, but neither does the term “open” apply well. Similarly, an open relationship in which the members of the relationship only play with outsiders separately is different than a couple that only plays with others together, but “open” is still the only term we have for either relationship style. However, “open” provides a framework for either style.

Expectations are essential to relationships—they are part of what defines them in fact. The label is not what defines the relationship—the expectations exist (perhaps unspoken) without the label—but the label helps others know how to best interact with the members of the relationship. Unfortunately, the feelings and expectations are there regardless of the label. The label also provides clearer guidance as to how to act for the members within the relationship—including what inquiries to make about how to act.

Labels (Part 1)

Many educated people often talk of the wisdom of avoiding labeling people and or interpersonal dynamics. To a certain degree I can agree. I agree that sometimes labels reduce us to objects within a category, rather than the individuals that we are. However the opposition to labels also misses the utility of labels. Labels allow us to form cognitive shortcuts and form expectations.

 Many of the labels that we use in fact are problematic specifically in the ways in which they act as cognitive shortcuts and framing expectations.  But the use of the label is not so much the problem as the rigidity to which we stick to the expectations or associations of that label. Take the labels “gay or “straight,” for example. Both of these labels are laden with expectations and associations, which often on whole are true for the majority (if not all) of the people that would fit the label. A liberal interpretation of the label would allow for a man labeled as “straight” to enjoy shopping or watching Glee more than watching sports and for a gay man to enjoy working on his car or hunting more than Project Runway or RuPaul’s Drag Race, as well for the more stereotypical reverse.

 

However, knowing that a man is “gay” or “straight” also informs me of the likelihood that he will know certain people or places that are frequented by other people labeled “gay.” Most “straight” people in Houston are not familiar with the Ripcord or BRB, but most “gay” people are. Perhaps most importantly, I know how safe or appropriate it is to hit on someone who has labeled himself “gay” or “straight.”

 

Of course, again there is the problem that while most people can in fact be neatly sorted into categories, others are poor fits for any of the existing categories that we have.  I have a client who would less identify as “gay” or “straight,” as he does “submissive;” the striving force of his sexual arousal is grounded in the dominant nature of a partner, rather than the partner’s gender. This client shies away from identifying as “bisexual” because “bisexual’ tends to be interpreted as attracted to both males and females, but this terms side-steps the notion that a partner’s gender is irrelevant, but rather it is the nature of the person—regardless of gender—that attracts him. I know other people who are honestly attracted to males and females and for whom gender is actually part of the attraction—“bisexual’ applies aptly for these clients.

 

Labels also give us a sense of belonging. Race or ethnicity is another area in which there is resistance to labeling. Race and ethnicity are, like sexual orientation, false categories that are socially constructed and do not reflect the diversity of people. However, through such labeling one has a sense of belonging, of having a kin-group.  According to Abraham Maslow, Belongingness is one of our basic needs and is foundational to our forming a positive sense of self. Acceptance, a form of belongingness, is essential to healthy self-esteem. Humans are naturally (it seems) suspicious of out-group members and more willing to support in-group members, and so labeling ourselves helps provide us with sources of support as well

 

So labels simultaneously allow us some expectations and associations (which we ought to confirm for each individual occurrence of a label in order to avoid too rigid of interpretation of the label), and fail to capture the full range and nuanced differences among people.  They also help give us a sense of how to behave and toward and around others. Similarly, they help us can give us a sense of community and promote mental health. Rejecting labels altogether because they do not work perfectly seems equally unwise as interpreting labels too rigidly.

Choosing a 100% Chance of Being Miserable

There are a couple of things which clients have said to me over the years that really stuck. The first one is from my very first client in training as a graduate student; the other was in the early days of my private practice. Both statements continue to resonate for me because they symbolize a recurring issue that I see in counseling, namely a refusal to leave a bad relationship after recognizing it is a bad relationship.

My first client was a volunteer from a psychology class for trainees to practice on; many of them did not think that they had problems that warranted counseling. She described to me the discomfort and difficulties she was having in her relationship, how her boyfriend would say mean things and go out with friends and “force” her to stay home, and how he had broken the windshield of her car. When I asked why she was still in a relationship that was so distressing she responded “It doesn’t hurt enough yet.”

She was able to recognize that being in the relationship “hurt,” but did not see that as a good “enough” reason to leave the relationship ”yet.” As this was my very first session with my very first client, I did not feel that I had the rapport with her to ask “how much does it have to hurt before it is okay to leave?” or challenge her on the notion that there needs to be some sort of threshold for pain at all in order to leave an emotionally abusive relationship. Note that there was no hope or expectation that this relationship was going to get better. In fact there appeared to be an expectation that the relationship would get worse. I kind of presume that she was waiting for the abuse to become physical—because breaking her windshield was not violent enough yet.

This was the basic sentiment expressed by the second client that left such an impression on me. He came to me to better deal with a relationship in which he was very unhappy. He relayed that they had been together about three years and how the relationship was unsatisfying in a variety of ways and how his boyfriend showed no signs of (or interest in) changing his behavior. The client described his boyfriend as a nice guy, but who did not want to do anything except stay home and watch TV; they had also stopped having sex. The client was clearly frustrated and did not know what to do, and then he said the words that continue to echo for me: “I wish he would just hit me.”

He went on to explain to me that he did not want to look like “the bad guy” in a break-up. Apparently, being miserable in a relationship is preferable to being “the bad guy” in a break-up. Furthermore, being miserable enough to want one’s partner to him/her is not itself a good enough reason to leave a bad relationship.

I think these clients emphasize the idea that we consider what might happen more than what is happening. I think there is this fear that something bad (e.g., loneliness, rejection, or loss of reputation) might follow a break-up. This really speaks to the importance of our desiring acceptance and belongingness—a willingness to endure being miserable over risking not being accepted by another. However, I would argue that being miserable in a relationship is a sign that the “acceptance” within the relationship is false and unsatisfying in its own right. After all, one does not have to be alone to feel lonely or rejected.

I do not mean to suggest that everyone should quit their relationships when things get tough. However, examining one’s relationship with regard to the amount of satisfaction-dissatisfaction in the relationship and the realistic hope that things will change (what reason are there to expect that things will—not just can—change?) is important in actually getting one’s belongingness and acceptance needs met. Within a bad relationship one can be 100% certain those needs will not be satisfactorily met. After a break-up there is at least an opportunity that one can get them met—in fact ending a bad relationship increases, not decreases, one’s odds of getting the positive attention one is afraid of not getting.

Psychotherapy vs. Psychopharmacology

Many patients seek medication for emotional discomfort, difficulty concentration, sleep disturbance, and somatic or physical manifestations of emotional discomfort. There is a tendency in our culture to treat illness with a pill—which drives this inclination, along with the continued stigma of being labeled with a mental illness—despite that so many people are on anti-depressants and anti-anxiety medications that their use is now “normal” to most people. Somehow being medicated for an emotional disturbance is not as stigmatizing as being in therapy for one. Additionally, there is a perspective that taking pills is easier (and cheaper) than seeking psychotherapy treatment. However, research on the effectiveness of psychotropic medication and psychotherapy show that many of these patients are doing themselves a disservice in this approach.

Overall, in early research the effectiveness of treatment of emotional disturbance (such as anxiety or depression) was shown to be roughly equal between psychotropic medication alone and psychotherapy alone for most common mental disorders. While there is a fair amount of research that has shown that combined therapy (medicine and talk therapy) is the most effective, more recent research has been suggesting that psychotherapy alone is as effective as combined therapy in the long run. Similarly, more recent research (focusing on long-term effectiveness, rather than immediate effectiveness) has shown that psychotherapy is more effective than medication with regard to long-term benefits. It turns out psychotherapy is advantageous compared to medicine in a number of ways.

Cumulatively, the research suggests that psychotherapy offers more long lasting benefits than medicine. Psychotherapy is actually shorter term. Even if one is in therapy for a number of years, people who begin antidepressants and anti-anxiety medication (without the additional benefit of psychotherapy) frequently end up on those medications for life—on account of the high relapse rates for medication alone. Ironically, studies have shown that across a lifetime, the cost of medication tends to exceed the cost of psychotherapy. Psychotherapy tends to be higher initial cost, but typically clients achieve a level of functioning that makes treatment unnecessary and the cost stops.

Psychotherapy additionally is safer. There are many dangerous drug interactions between psychotropic medicines and other medicines, while psychotherapy does not interact chemically with any medicines. Psychotherapy has few side effects—some initial increased emotional discomfort is common, but loss of sexual performance due to psychotherapy is extremely rare, for example. Likewise, sleeping disruption seems to be temporary and psychotherapy is not associated with unwanted weight gain—psychopharmacology cannot make those claims.

Ideal treatment for many emotional disturbances appears to be co-joint treatment with medication and therapy initially, with patients gradually reducing and terminating their medication as progress in psychotherapy provides symptom relief such that symptoms become tolerable in the absence of medication. However, there are some disorders, such as schizophrenia, ADHD, bipolar disorder, and dysthymia (chronic depression), for which psychotherapy is not as effective medicine. But even in these cases, there is also strong evidence that psychotherapy administered along with psychopharmacology is more effective than medication alone in treating these more severe mental disorders.
Of course, the downside is that psychotherapy is more work and requires actually looking at one’s pain (and sometimes the source of it), rather than covering it over. Psychotherapy functions with a goal of symptom removal, whereas medication frequently has the effect of symptom mediation. Of course, harder work also equals more meaningful reward though.

Mental Hygiene and Mental Health

In this country “mental health” typically refers only to the negative end of the spectrum, in other words, neutral mental health to mental illness—we too often think of “mental health” in terms of either having mental illness or not. We tend to ignore the role of mental health in terms of strength or resilience—the positive end of the spectrum. Psychologists are thought of in terms of fixing things that have gotten broken, but not thought of in terms of preventing things from getting broken in the first place. We do preventative maintenance our cars, but do not often (enough) think about preventative maintenance on our psyches.


The opposite of negative is not zero, but rather positive. Yet the role we have relegated psychologists to is to deal with the negative to zero range. We have come to equate “happiness” with the absence of being unhappy, and they really are not equivalent. Happiness is a positive, while the absence of unhappiness is actually zero. The greater happiness (in terms of contentment, rather than momentary joy) we have in our lives, the less susceptible to mental illness we are. As long as we ignore half of the spectrum, we will find ourselves more and more in the side of the spectrum to which we do attend.

We fail to recognize that many of the skills and techniques that psychologists have developed for mental remediation and repair can also be used for mental enhancement and strengthening (e.g., communication and social skills, openness to experience, stress management). Pre-marital counseling used to be valued, but now we only go to a counselor after the relationship has become problematic (and even then usually not until the resentment has gotten out of control).

When I was deciding on a graduate program I choose a Counseling Psychology program (rather than the more popular and better known Clinical Psychology) because as a sub-field it was known to emphasize mental wellness, instead of mental illness. Counseling Psychology was (and is) known for the emphasis on optimal function, not simply adequate functioning. Counseling Psychology tends to be more focused on hope, optimism, self-efficacy, emotional intelligence, wisdom, courage, and personal strengths. We are less excited about helping a client get better than we are about helping the client become a better version of himself or herself—even if that is from a position of mental illness.

I think of Counseling Psychology as aspirational, let’s not just make you better, let’s make you the best. When Counseling Psychology was first forming as a discipline within psychology, it focused on what was called “mental hygiene.” It was focused on keeping people’s minds functioning well, not on returning people’s minds to a functional state. There is a wealth of research on the benefits of psychological enrichment, above and beyond psychological remediation. However, we continue to value psychological remediation over psychological enrichment.

I have a friend who is a psychologist who claims that the reparative work he does with clients is more valuable or meaningful than the work that I strive to do with (typically higher functioning) clients to bring them to optimal functioning. In our culture we focus on deficiency rather than enhancement; we focus on what is missing in our lives rather than how to better develop and utilize what we already have. But the research shows that nation-wide, the impact of improving the lives of people who are already functional can have more of a positive impact than bringing (the minority of) people back to base functioning. People’s productivity and pro-social helping behaviors are more affected by life improvement than remediation of a disorder. Improve the lives of many slightly and there is more of a positive impact on society than remediating the problems of the few. However, even in the presence of many studies that have shown that happier people who better manage their stress—including the cost savings of mental preventative maintenance, mental hygiene is dismissed as unimportant.

I often run into people socially who tell me about how their lives are unsatisfying, even though they are adequately functional. They will even tell me they are not unhappy, but also unfulfilled (not happy). Most of these people would never consider going to a counselor, psychotherapist, or psychologist to help them improve their lives because they do not see their lives as “broken.” Instead they spend their time acquiring objects or sex to feel more fulfilled, which will never be as effective as counseling, and more expensive in the long run.

Partial Presentation and the Hook

Have you ever met someone who seemed a little too together? I acknowledge that some people really do have their shit together—they have both a sense of accomplishment and a sense of purpose and direction. But there is perhaps no one that does not simultaneously harbor some self-doubt as well. In fact, I have found that people’s uncertainty is a big part of what makes them relatable to me.

I recently met a guy online and had some rather enjoyable chats with him. However, when we met in person for lunch he presented himself as having solved all of his problems and as being very certain about himself and his life. He relayed a situation with his boyfriend in which he had recently addressed and successfully resolved a problem. There was no regret or doubt in his telling of the story—no un-sureness that the resolution would be successful. He presented his life as on track and betrayed no fear of challenges or obstacles or dissatisfaction.

Online he had been quirky and we had shared our respective senses of not fully understanding ourselves. It was as if online he was able to be more vulnerable, but face to face he needed to present well. The self-doubt, the willingness to be not quite “normal” which appeared in the online conversations disappeared in person. Unfortunately, this persona was very distancing for me. I do not know to what degree he presented this composure because he realized I was a psychologist, but it caused me to experience him as false or at best “partial,” as if I were only getting the shiny part of the whole picture.

In counseling and psychotherapy we talk about clients’ “hooks.” The hook is the aspect of the client from which our empathy for the client grows. Typically it has to do with the internal struggle. People who appear to be trying to do life right are appealing. People who are not struggling are difficult for anyone to relate to—few (if any) of us have a sense of what it is like to not have an internal struggle of some kind. Some people’s struggles do not make sense to us personally as struggles. That they are struggling internally is what makes them relatable—not necessarily the struggle itself. Sure, the person has to be likable or someone we can care about in the first place in order for their struggle to matter, but someone who is simply likable usually feels incomplete, or false. This guy seemed likable—not offensive in any way—just not fully present (or fully presenting).

I enjoy confident people. I have frequently said that confidence is the most attractive cologne. I like people who have a sense of accomplishment and a sense of purpose and direction. However, someone who is accomplished and simultaneously is uncertain is someone I experience as a real person. I don’t think anyone wants to be friends with just a façade of a person. We may even admire a person without apparent problems, but their friendship would not actually be rewarding.

Ideally, one would present as confident, but perhaps not certain. We like to know that others are also vulnerable. Similarly, I think it is comforting to present as recognizing that you are flawed—accepting of the flawed state, but also maybe wishing not to be. Though I would caution that (especially upon initial and early contact) it is also important to exhibit that you are grounded and not just a mass of uncertainty—that can be just as partial, absent a center. In the absence of substance there is also no personality in which to hook into. Someone who seems to have it all figured out does not seem like someone who is going to grow much.

“Alcoholic”

As a therapist the word “alcoholic” is bothersome. It is not that I have a problem with alcoholics particularly, but rather I have a problem with how the term—and its associations—interfere with treating alcohol-related problems. The common use of the term, and especially the commonly held definitions or expectations of the label, create an either/or designation for alcohol problems—either one is an alcoholic or one is not, there is no in-between ground . If someone is using alcohol to his or her detriment, but does not drink to messy intoxication regularly (or always), we tend not to label that person an alcoholic and consequently there is (frequently) no attempt to address the problems that are associated with the alcohol use.

“Alcoholic” and “Alcoholism” are not clinical terms and therefore they sometimes have poor operational definitions. If someone drinks every day, but not to the point of apparent (or clinically significant—in psychologist speak) dysfunction, we do not classify that person as an alcoholic—even if his or her drinking is negatively affecting the overall quality of his/her personal life (e.g., relationships, sex life, hobbies). If the drinking causes problems, but does not appear to be an "addiction" (another term that is not clinically defined), then we tend not to label it as something to be treated. We may even talk to the person about how his/her drinking is affecting him, but we do not typically address it in terms of maybe the person should seek help—that would mean he/she was an alcoholic after all, and we do not want to give that stigmatized label to anyone inaccurately.

Furthermore, someone who is experiencing alcohol-related problems but does not experience the symptoms associated with “addiction” is not likely to benefit from Alcoholics Anonymous meetings. Maybe he/she is drinking more frequently, but not substantially more at any one time, or has cravings, but not actually withdrawal. These could, however, qualify someone for a diagnosis of Alcohol Dependence or Alcohol Abuse. But a person is not likely to see himself/herself as an “alcoholic.” “Alcoholism” and “addiction” are the common terms used to describe someone who we perceive as having as having a drinking problem, not “dependence” or “abuse,” which allow for more flexibility in identifying problematic drinking.

Another aspect that is missed with traditional thinking on alcoholism is that someone over 50 may not be drinking more, but is most likely getting more drunk on the same amount of alcohol. Around the age of 50 our bodies become less able to detoxify alcohol, so smaller amounts can actually have more major impacts. But we see a person having two to three drinks a night still—without needing a greater quantity of alcohol, yet his/her body is processing the same amount as if it was in fact more. This can disguise the tolerance a person might be developing.

If we were willing to think of drinking problems in terms other than “alcoholism” or “not alcoholism” we could better address the negative impacts that some people’s alcohol use causes.

Mimicking Depression

There are two medical conditions that frequently show up in psychologists’ office as depression. These medical disorders outwardly mimic depression (and may even cause depression), but have distinctly different causes, and, untreated, can endanger a person’s health. If you are experiencing depression symptoms, you may want to consider seeing a physician, not for antidepressant medications, but rather to be checked for other problems that may mimic depression.

When I was in graduate school we were frequently reminded to consider hypothyroidism (insufficient release of thyroid hormone) in women who presented with depression. Both cause lethargy/fatigue and hypersomnia (sleepiness), are associated with physical pain in the joints and muscles, and involve lack of motivation, anhedonia (loss of enjoyment in things which use to be enjoyable), negative mood states (e.g., sadness, regret, or anger), mood swings, and weight gain. Many of the symptoms of hypothyroidism mimic depression and it is consequently frequently under-diagnosed, or misdiagnosed as depression.

No amount of anti-depressant medication will make the symptoms of hypothyroidism go away. Thyroid hormone affects many other bodily functions and low levels can negatively affect multiple organ systems. Untreated hypothyroidism can lead to goiter and heart problems and can even cause birth defects if a pregnant woman has hypothyroidism, so proper diagnosis is very important. More women than men present with depression symptoms, so awareness of this mimicking phenomenon is drilled into psychologists in grad school. However, it is also important that women be aware of the similarity so that they know to consult a physician (perhaps in addition to a psychologist) if they experience symptoms of depression.

Perhaps because men present for depression less frequently than women, being able to distinguish medical disorders from mental disorders is less emphasized in grad school. If a man presents with difficulty attaining or maintaining an erection, lack of sex drive, irritability, mood swings, negative mood states (e.g., sadness, regret, or anger), difficulty concentrating, lethargy/fatigue, a lack of motivation, and weight gain the psychologist is likely to diagnose depression, whereas the medical doctor will probably evaluate testosterone levels. These symptoms are common to both disorders and both would be reasonable diagnoses given the respective experts’ fields.

Many of the symptoms that might allow for differential diagnosis are not likely to be mentioned by men over 35 to either a psychologist or a physician. Hair loss is normal as a man ages, but is also accelerated by low testosterone. The development of fatty tissue in the breast/chest area probably also isn’t going to have attention called to it when presenting to a health professional—either because it is embarrassing or because it won’t even be noticed with the rest of the weight gain. But these are some of the things that can be used to assess if a man is suffering depression or low testosterone. Sometimes, though increasingly less so, male clients will not tell their psychotherapist or counselor about sexual dysfunction either. Even in the absence of these symptoms I have encouraged some of my male clients to have their testosterone levels checked.

Decreased testosterone is normal for a man over 40, but sometimes there is a precipitous drop in testosterone levels and that will lead to depression-type symptoms, along with health risks. Low testosterone is associated with heart problems and even susceptibility to broken bones. And, like hypothyroidism, anti-depressant medication will not address the symptoms, not even the mood symptoms, effectively.

Along with the normal drop in testosterone, there is a natural drop in sexual function and energy, which may be perceived as the normal part of aging—and for many it is—but even many physicians are not trained to ask about the effects of lessened testosterone in a way which would indicate lower-than-normal-for-age testosterone levels. It is important that men be aware of the symptoms and question the severity of the drop (and the mood features associated with low testosterone) in order to take care of themselves.

There is some controversy whether hypothyroidism and low testosterone mimic or actually cause depression. To me the distinction might be irrelevant. If after taking the medication the depressive symptoms do not go away after a few weeks, you might want to see a therapist to address whatever depression may have followed the body chemistry problems from the physical disorder. If the depressive symptoms go away from treating the primary physical problem, then the depression has gone anyway. But the main point is that, like with so many physical disorders, it is important to know to consider with the medical or mental health professionals all of the possibilities.

Doling Out Your Crazy

When we meet someone for the first time, especially someone with whom we want to get intimate, we want to make a good impression. Part of making a good impression is being yourself with someone. People are pretty good at detecting insincerity; people do not respond well to partial presentations. But people also don’t tend to want to associate with people who present as a “mess.”

I encourage my clients to dole out their crazy a little at a time when developing a relationship. There is a pace at which it feels healthy and appropriate to share one’s uncertainties and idiosyncrasies. It is sort of like testing the waters. Trying to see how much of our own craziness the person is ready to handle. This is partially determined by how much quality is perceived in the person—in other words: “Does the person have enough good stuff to put up with the crazy?” By the way, we all have a little craziness.

The craziness may be some odd superstitious ritual or fear that is not grounded in any rationality, but is grounded in the perception of our own experiences. We all have some strange ideas about the world and frequently our own un-founded insecurities (e.g., I have a faux paranoia about ebola). No one is really quite “normal,” while they might be mentally quite healthy. These are the quirks that make us who we are—often the parts that people find endearing after they get to know us.

However, emphasis on “after they get to know us” is worth highlighting. Too much intimacy—crazy or not—too soon is usually off-putting. We enjoy the process of getting to know someone; the process of discovery is engaging. Knowing everything at once can feel overwhelming—there is no context for the details, no sense of nuance or flavor. It can feel too raw. Additionally, I think there is something to feeling special because an intimate aspect of someone was shared with us. Aspects of oneself shared too easily do not feel like intimacy.

We also take as a cue how much we will share (or are expected to) based on how much another shares, and therefore someone sharing too much too quickly may feel threatening. Most of us want to control the rate at which someone knows our quirks and insecurities—there is vulnerability in it. When someone blurts out all of his or her idiosyncrasies, we don’t feel safe sharing with him or her our personal thoughts. Furthermore, the expectation to match the pace of sharing can make us want to back away (and protect our privacy).

I do not mean to discourage sharing, of course. Exposing our true selves actually tends to open us up to greater connection and happiness. However, when trying to decide to share one’s quirkiness think about the purpose of the sharing—what are you trying to achieve by it? Are you trying to provide insight? Are you trying to explain a particular behavior or tendency? Are you trying to be funny? Or is it just coming out of you uncontrollably? That last one is the one to watch out for—it will drive people away (or to stare).

The Five Love Languages

Gary Chapman came up with the theory of the five love languages. It is an idea I use with clients frequently. It addresses the idea that demonstrations of love often go unnoticed (or unappreciated) by a partner. Chapman discovered that people engage in and recognize demonstrations of love differently. He categorized these disparate actions into the categories, or languages: words of affirmation, quality time, receiving gifts, acts of service, and physical touch.

Saying “I love you” is important and can be powerful in its own right. However, in our culture the word “love” has lost some of its strength because of how loosely it is used (“Oh, I love those shoes”). “I love you” can also feel obligatory and insincere sometimes. I encourage clients to share what about their partner(s) they love. Those are true words of affirmation. I do caution people not to use them as blackmail though, don’t turn them into “I love it when you...” in order to get someone to do something, but rather only as sincere appreciation for their having done it.

One of the most valuable and overlooked things that we can offer a partner is our time. Companionship is essential for a relationship (of any kind). Doing things together can function as a bonding experience. It is important to find shared interests and it is important to be curious about your partner(s) interests, even when it is not a shared interest. Work on enjoying your partner’s company when you do things with them that you don’t necessarily enjoy doing yourself—make enjoying their company what you get out of it rather than the joy of the activity itself. Another aspect of quality time that is frequently overlooked is that just sitting with someone who is suffering, enduring what they are going through—without an agenda of your own—is one of the greatest gifts you can give someone.

Meaningful trinkets can in fact be very meaningful. A few years ago my BF was putting in some glass doors, to open the house up to the backyard. I appreciated what he was doing (and his concern that it was temporarily inconveniencing us) so I purchased and wrapped a DVD of a movie I knew liked and stuck in conspicuous place in the jobsite one night so that he found it the next day when he went back to the project. Flowers are the gold standard of trinket gifts, but occasionally spontaneously providing something that your partner has casually mentioned wanting is a great way of saying “I care about and attend to you.”

Doing non-chore household tasks, especially without being asked can be a powerful statement of “we are in this together.” Noticing things that your partner does not like or is incapable of doing and doing those things for him or her is another way of showing you are attending and care. If you can notice something you can do to improve a process of your partner’s or can create something to facilitate the ease of his or her process, you are likely to be appreciated. Even helping out in mundane ways tends to be felt as cared for. My boyfriend cooks most of the dinners in our home and I recognize his doing so is at least partially an act of appreciation for having me in his life.

Touch can be incredibly powerful. There is research that chemicals are released in our brains by just watching another person be tenderly touched. Research has even shown that a comforting touch can be desirable than sustenance. A simple caress or reaching for a partner’s hand while watching TV says “I value you.” While sexual groping can be a great way of saying “I find you sexy,” a non-sexual touch can say “I appreciate you beyond the great sex” (and might even lead to great sex!). Even people who are not touchy-feely can appreciate an occasional touch.

But the important thing to remember is that you may be saying “I love you” all of the time, but if you are speaking a different love language than you partner, the message may not be getting through. It is important to learn the language that your partner comprehends and speak that language. It may even be a good idea to let your partner know what language you hear. An issue that I have not seen Chapman address is that some people speak and hear different love languages themselves. So you cannot always count on getting your love message heard simply by speaking the same language your partner speaks. It is also worth learning what love language your partner speaks, so that you can become better aware of when he or she is saying “I love you” in a language that you don’t hear. Ideally you won’t send messages that are not received, but nor will you miss the messages that are sent in a foreign love tongue.